The lovely Chloe from one of my favorite blogs suggested that if we’re bored that we participate in the Sugar Doll award. And since I’m beyond bored, I think I’ll do just that. Here are 10 things you probably don’t know about me…or maybe you do?

1. I think Gatorade and flavored water are gross.
2. I went through a phase in the third and fourth grades where I was terrified to sleep by myself, so I slept on the floor next to my parents’ bed every single night. It got so bad that they tried to bribe me with the promise of new toys.
3. I cannot sleep without a fan or similar noise.
4. “Cheersing” (like ‘cheers’ to a great weekend!) more than one time in a setting really irritates me and I usually just won’t participate after the first go around. Call me a party pooper.
5. I am highly allergic to V-8 Splash. Like hives kind of allergic. And the worst part is I love it and wish I could drink it.
6. The only things I really miss since becoming vegan are fake spray butter (gross, I know) and holiday flavored coffee creamer.
7. I won “Most Outgoing” in the high school senior superlatives, which is funny because I can also be very much the ‘keep to myself’ type.
8. I reluctantly went camping and rafting in the Grand Canyon for 4 days and it turned into one of the best experiences ever.
9. I must brush my teeth before putting my daily face lotion on and wash my hair last in the shower. It completely jacks my day up if I don’t.
10.The act of anyone farting or hearing fart stories or jokes is the funniest thing in the world to me and it will never get old. Screw chocolate as the way into my heart—tell me a good fart story within the first 3 dates and you’re there!

Consider yourself tagged if you too are bored and need something to do!

a new era

Yesterday was a strange day. I had two very significant realizations that completely took me by surprise. I’m still processing all of this, as it could very well be a fluke and this new found awareness could go flying out the window. But for now, I’m embracing it and it feels good.

1. I have always been an avid hater on the fall season. It makes me anxious and out of my element. Also, I’ve been known to challenge the cooler weather by raising it a sundress and usually end up getting my ass kicked. However, this fall has been rather enjoyable and I’ve found that I somewhat like it. This is a huge deal for me—ask my friends and they’ll tell you I usually avoid fall like the plague. But not this year. I’m a fall lover (well, atleast liker). And I feel like a pretty cool cat for this.

2. I only eat red apples, but after a friend told me about a delicious salad recipe involving Granny Smith apples, I began using them. I thought it was a salad-only love affair, but yesterday I ate one whole and my taste buds did a little jig! This means I have another fruit to choose from and I don’t have to decline offers when there is a “green apple only” situation. I’m not racist!

homesick

I think I’m homesick. It’s strange to use the term homesick when you’ve lived away from your parents and “home city” for over six years, but it still has a way of getting to me. Nostalgic is probably a more appropriate term.

I miss my house and neighborhood in Raleigh. I miss the comfort and naivety of being in high school. I miss my morning routine with my parents in high school (which I took advantage of at the time and would do a lot to have that routine now). Every morning I came downstairs and drank coffee with my parents and played with my dog who was much more concerned with my mother’s buttered toast that may or may not fall to the floor. I would then go shower and get ready for school before returning downstairs to put my English muffin or bagel in the toaster, and then run out the door with breakfast, shoes, backpack, and usually a juice box in hand. Actually, one time I completely forgot to grab my shoes and drove all the way to school before realizing my oversight. I was not a happy camper.

I still view my morning routine as somewhat sacred, but it’s much different now. I still drink my coffee or tea, but while watching the Today Show or Sabrina the Teenage Witch (don’t you dare judge me). I still play with my dog. And I still don’t eat my breakfast first thing (I wait until I get to work). But I do this by myself. Like a big girl. And most of the time I love it. I enjoy my quiet time in the morning, but sometimes I wish I had savored those mornings with my family more, because I sure do miss them lately. [insert my mother's tears here]

What do you miss? What are some routines of yours that stem from old family tradtions?

ch-ch-change

I need your help dear friends. I’ve desperately wanted a change lately…nothing too big, but just something. Whether that is simply a new, bright shade of lipstick, or dying my hair, or something else…I don’t know. Dying my hair is a big deal because I’m terrified of losing my natural color, but still think it could be fun! So, please send me suggestions, ideas, warnings, anything! See photo in my last post for current hair color/style and see picture below for color I might consider dying it to. Thanks lovely readers!

goals

Who I am…

-I am extremely sensitive and take things personally
-I relentlessly compare myself to others.
-I am so indecisive that it gets on my own nerves. I even regret my decision of food choice at restaurants 75% of the time.
-I have tons of ideas and things I want to create and do, but fear holds me back from doing a lot of that.
-I am really self-conscious most of the time.
-I dislike few people, but when those people are in my presence it literally makes my blood pressure rise and I want to kick and scream.
-I am easily swayed by other people’s opinions


Who I want to eventually be…

-I don’t want to change my sensitiveness because it’s a huge part of who I am, but I’d like to get to a point where I don’t take everything so personally
-I would like to get over this irrational and time-wasting behavior and be my own person, flaws and all. There will always be someone that has or does something better than me. Not to mention I have all I need.
-I want to confidently make a decision and stick to it no matter what. If it was the wrong decision, learn from it and move on.
-Take baby steps in turning my ideas and dreams into something real--even if it’s a tiny version of that idea. Suck it, fear.
-I am determined to be confident in my own skin one of these days. I’ve come a long way so I know I am capable of getting to a healthier place.
-I would prefer not to let those I dislike get to me. It’s really only me it’s affecting anyway.
-I want to make decisions for myself without getting other’s inputs and thinking every possible outcome through. Instincts are there for a reason and I need to learn to trust them and live a little.



All that being said, I feel like I’m in a good place right now. Today’s lunch date with my good friend Em brightened it so!